Selling up and Renting ..Free at last ?

For many years my wife and I have been trapped in a financial nightmare, which systematically snubbed out all our hopes and dreams. This grim situation has had a massive effect on our physical and mental health. To put it in modern parlance – debt fucks you up!.

Background to why we are selling 
So how did I get into such a predicament? Briefly it was primarily due to a well intentioned, but I guess ultimately misguided effort to ease the burden and guilt of my father. You see like so many people in traditional businesses my father failed to see the world was changing fast and sadly paid the ultimate price for his lack of foresight. He lost his beloved family business, home and some years later his mind.

Being the dutiful offspring is often a frustrating task, while trying your best to appease parents you also have to deal with the unforgiving world that sadly seems to have no time for the old and confused. Luckily I guess, unlike my father I had seen that my family would all soon be homeless. While I was unable to stop them losing everything, I was able to secure a mortgage and so create a lifeboat for everyone to fall into. In reality this was a far from satisfactory arrangement, my parents, my brother,his girlfriend and my wife all packed into a small modern three bedroom house.  In short by trying to help everyone out my wife and I  screwed ourselves financially, emotionally and felt very little thanks for our trouble.

Two years ago both my parents sadly died within just three months of each other. In many ways it was a relief for them I guess they had come to resent the world and at times even each other. My mother died first of a stroke and my father simply faded away of heartbreak and dementia. Their deaths while a massive blow left us with more problems, for they had not put much money aside for funerals. While all this was going on my wife’s family was also dropping like flies. Then to top it all off my wife was diagnosed with the chronic version of a little known autoimmune disease, sarcoidosis. With my own Bipolar raging out of control (stress will do that to you) our life looked like a car wreck on the M25 on a cold foggy morning. For over 18 months we have been battling to keep our home (because of all the debt) until one day we both woke up to the realisation that it was time to just let it all go.

While we love our little home we really have no option but to sell it and move on.

Selling Up
In the next few weeks our home of 13 years goes up on the market and it’s a bloody relief. I have always believed  and was told that owning one’s home was the only way to live. It is only when you look at the world through eyes awakened to ones own mortality, that home ownership can seem just like a massive inflexible weight around one’s neck. In fact that is almost exactly what my grandad had told my dad when he was buying his first house in the 60’s (if only he had listened)

So my wife and I will be renting soon and I must confess to being a little scared of that, in ‘Great’ Britain renting is a bloody logistical nightmare especially if like us you have a dog. Oh if only we were both still living in America where renting is the norm and on the whole a very easy and straightforward process. While I know many in the UK look down on renting and renters it offers us a whole host of benefits, not least the flexibility to move wherever we like and often to homes we simply could never afford to buy. Gone will be the sleep depriving worry of those expensive and unforeseen house repairs ,or necessary house upgrades to keep the property value up. Homeownership is grand idea if you have the bank balance that can cope with it, but for the financially stretched it can often seem like debt slavery or a prison sentence with no hope of parole.

A mortgage in truth until it is payed off is still just a glorified rental agreement, start missing too many payments and then see what you really ‘own’. With houses getting ever more expensive and mortgages longer by the time the bloody thing is paid off  your be just the right age to check into a care home. At this point it will become evitant that owning your own home should you need care is far less of an advantage than you would think.

I fully understand that renting has it’s downsides, yes it can often be more expensive per month than buying, but when you think about the money most people plough into a house over it’s lifetime it often evens itself out. I must come back to the one thing that is important to us Freedom! The ability to move and move again if need or whim comes up. The ability to finally be free of debt after so many soul crushing years, outweighs all the downsides we may have to face over the coming month .

I shall post more as events unfold.

Cameron ‘put on a proper suit’ jibe

David Cameron has told Jeremy Corbyn to ‘put on a proper suit’  today at prime ministers question time. With that comment David has once again made himself out to be a complete twat (that’s a technical term). Forget what my late mother would have said I have always held the view that you should never trust a man who wears a suit all the time. 

This kind of statement is exactly why we can’t take a word Cameron says on anything seriously. We should definitely not be listening to him for a sound advice on the EU vote.
Cameron is a systems man he wants everything to stay as it is, he is exactly the type of person who would judge a book by it’s cover, the type of person that would overlook talent just because they don’t look a certain way.

While I don’t agree with everything Corbyn says he has more worldly sense in his big toe than the fool Cameron has in his whole body. So let’s just stop listening to anything he says, he lied to Scotland during the independence vote and got away with it. He lied to the people of britain during the last election and got away with it . Lets not get fooled again during the EU vote.

David most of us don’t want to just keep the Status Quo, we want better, we want to be free from the men is suits like you and yes most of us want to be free from the EU.


Last chance to leave EU, save your country

I have never had a good word to say about the EU that’s a fact. I was a young boy when the keys to this country were given up to the faceless bureaucratic machine that is the EU project. I have lived most of my 50 years enslaved to lands that have throughout the history of Britain been more often than not our enemies than our friends.

The EU was a lie, sold to our parents and grandparents generations who still were navie and trusting enough to belief the people in power had our best interests at heart. No matter our politics or what party we support few of us can really believe that our leaders do anything for the people, no those days are long behind us. That said I would rather be ruled by a bunch of liars from my own country than a bunch of liars from abroad.

Big Business, no doubt will claim that leaving the EU will be be bad for us, that the sky will fall in on us and this country will become a shadow of it’s former self etc etc. The truth is this country is already a shadow of it’s former self and business with it’s wish to make more and more profits is solely to blame. Business has no interest in keeping jobs in Britain.  They claim they have moved everything abroad to remain competitive, maybe that is true but their actions have destroyed a nation’s dignity and forced a once proud country to make a living selling cheap foreign made crap to each other and live in a culture that worships at the altar of cheap over quality.

The EU may not be to blame for that, but when business bleat on about the fact we will all be worse off if we leave the EU, we must take a look at where we are and what we have and say how could that be possible.  Are these people just not sowing the seeds of fear to feather their own pockets? The EU has no care for the people of Britain. They don’t care about our history or traditions and in our modern PC world we are told none of that matters but the fact is Yes it bloody well does!

If being Welsh, Scottish, Irish or English doesn’t matter vote to stay in the EU.  But if you believe it does then you owe it to your kin to vote to leave the EU. If you don’t then in just a few generations your offspring will awaken to a world where a wish to be anything other that the vast sprawling homogenised state will be rejected as a disgusting politically incorrect thought-crime.

If we vote as a nation to stay in the EU then we are basically rejecting the notion of individuality and turning our back on the millions and millions that died for the right for our nation’s freedom. If that concept sounds politically incorrect to you, then you have already brought into a lie that being proud of your nation’s flag is wrong even racist.

So your choice is simple even if people in power will tell you it’s not.  Choose your country or a faceless corporation,  it’s up to you.

Final thought, I do not trust the people in power and I do not believe that all the people in positions of influence are really showing their hands. It would not surprise me if people that are widely hated will come out as wishing to leave the EU just so people will vote against them. Even a fixing of the vote should not be ruled out as I do not belive the hidden hand has any wish to leave the EU. Vote for what you want not for parties, personalities or revenge on people in power you don’t like. This Vote is the most important one our generation will ever have, waste it not for it will never come around again.







Clacton Air Show 2015 – Vulcan Bomber XH558

Taken by me at Clacton air show 2015 (Edited image)
The Red Arrows taken at Clacton air show 2014 (Edited image)

It’s the second day of the Clacton Air show and it looks like it will be a fine day by the sea. My wife and I went yesterday to see the Vulcan bombers XH558 last show in this area. It’s one of the most impressive planes I have ever seen and while it can no longer roars like it did (engine must be preserved) it never the less still puts on a fine display. Considering the XH558 first flew in 1960 the plane looks as modern as ever. Sadly this will be the Vulcan’s last show year, so if you can catch her at one of it’s last shows I highly recommend you do. It goes without saying we will never see the likes of her in the sky again.

DCF 1.0
Vulcan bomber in its last year of powering on.
Vulcan at Clacton yesterday
Vulcan at Clacton yesterday

In This Moment My new Favourite Metal band

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The world is a big place and it’s impossible to know or follow every band from it’s inception. Sometimes just a chance link or even an advert will bring a song or a band to your attention. Often what happens to me is I just discover a band (that everyone else knew about) only to discover they broke up 3 years ago.

So today I discovered ‘In This Moment’. As I have said before I’ve been listening to Metal since the early 80’s. I have always like Metal which gives it’s listener space to breathe which may be an odd thing to say. I personally find little enjoyment in just being washed away by a wall of thrash guitars and a vocalist that only ever growls . If that’s your thing cool but it’s not for me.

Whilst washing the dishes, I just wanted that certain something kind of metal and after a few clicks I found it. Macabre twisted and full of light and dark, In this Moment, hit the sound spot I was looking for. In This Moment, an American metal band from Los Angeles, California may have been around since 2005 but today I discovered them and like a fine whisky they have been getting better every year till I stumbled across the bottle and took a sip.

I’m sure there are hundreds of bands that have just the right texture of metal for me and maybe you can let me know about them or I will discover them myself one year.

So here are the New to Me Band, In this Moment

Question your doctor

Question everything
Don’t get it then your have to do a bit of searching😉

Never be afraid to question the number of pills you are on with your doctors. I’m not saying you should stop taking anything. What I am saying is you’re well within your rights to have a discussion with your doctor about why you are taking something and do you really still need them if you been taking something for a long time that no longer seems to work. Doctors are not Gods, they are fallible even if we would like to think they aren’t. People often feel intimidated by those in the medical profession or they don’t want to take up the doctors time. This is just stupid.  We are talking about your health and life. You have a right to question your treatment no matter how inferior you feel. A doctor who is not prepared to answer questions or listen to your concerns is a person who shouldn’t be dealing with the public.

Medications can and do save lives, but they can also give you a whole bag full of side effects worst than the conditions they are meant to fix. This is especially true I have found in pills for the treatment of mental conditions. A number of bipolar pills I have been on over the years have made my condition worse.  At other times I have been prescribed medication that really isn’t best to treat my exact problem. This occurs by mistake or because the doctors don’t have the time or aren’t really listening to your symptoms.

Do I believe the whole medical profession is corrupted by pharmaceutical companies that have twisted doctors into prescribing pills to boost their profits in return for kick backs? I don’t think it hurts to keep that in the back of your mind as corruption and peer pressure is everywhere in life. All I can say is I’ve met some very good doctors and some very bad ones and unlike many professions a doctors incompetence can and has cost lives.

The web is full of nasty stories about every drug ever made, you should not base your health on what one or two websites say. What I believe is if you don’t feel right about your doctor get a second opinion or change doctors even if it means going to a whole different practice. Sure you could just be paranoid but if your condition is life threatening you would be foolish not explore to other options if you, your friends and family don’t feel right about your treatment.

Pharmaceutical companies operate for profit some may make great products but do you really think they will be sad if they find out you have just one more condition that could be treated by their medications?

Creating a beach in Clacton on sea

Just a quick unedited video shot on a handheld Sony DSC HX400v of sand being pumped up from a floating pipe line connected to the recharge vessel “Freeway”. Clacton will now have a much bigger beach thanks to the many fishtail groynes (the new sea defense system) one of which can be seen behind the bulldozer. Note the talking in the back ground is not me.

This is my first Youtube video upload, can’t you just hear Spielberg is trembling in his boots:). Joking aside I have always avoided uploading videos on youtube because I new they would be poor quality compared to other peoples polished productions. Sure my shaky attempts may not win any awards, but they are a record of a moment in time and who knows someone now or in the future may find them of interest. I decided to just go for it and I will now upload more in the future, as the process is much easier than when i tried in 2006. I will not enable comments as I find them to be the most disempowering part to youtube. I don’t know about you but I’ve no interest in what complete strangers feel about other peoples videos.

So if you have ever wanted to upload a video to Youtube give it a go stop waiting for approval , just remember to disable comments unless you enjoy being beaten over the head with verbal sticks:)

A wobbly Panoramic shot of beach building
A wobbly Panoramic shot of beach building

The Red or The Blue Pill ?


In the classic Sci-fi movie The Matrix, Neo is offered a Choice between a blue pill which will allow him to remain in the fabricated reality of the Matrix, or a red pill which will unplug him from the Matrix and show him his world as it really is. The choice is irrevocable and Life changing.

Most of the people I know can’t choose what they want for dinner, let alone make a life changing  decision. The simple fact is that few of us really know what we want from our life, even when we get what we think we want, we are soon looking for something else. Generally speaking most people have enough trouble getting through the day let alone searching for the meaning of everything. That said there are those that do dedicate there life searching for the ‘truth’. I often wonder if they ever discovered the ‘truth’ would it, could it live up to their expectations? They may end up having their belief system shaken to it’s very core, but equally they could simply discover that life is not really that mysterious.

For all of us there are things in life we have discovered that we wish we could forget, knowing the truth often makes life much harder than those that live in ignorance. Discovering exactly how millions if not billions of animals suffer every year in the worlds food chains can be horrific, It may shake you enough to become a vegan or a vegetarian* which many would see as a good thing. What few non meat eaters would admit is that just sometimes it would be nice to go back to the unknowing, just to eat a burger, or pick something off the ’normal’ menu.

Another example would be the person who thought themselves happily married, only to discover one day that there partner has been having an affair for years. The second before the knowledge life was good, then a second after a whole life time would seem like a lie. The broken hearted seldom ever repair, they will always find it hard to trust, some may never really ever love again. Their are those that spend a whole life time yearning for the return of Innocence as the worlds truths slowly strips their souls bare.

So if you were Neo what would you choose? To see the world as it really is or live in your current lie. My guess is most people would rather live in the lie and I can understand that. I like to think I would be brave enough to take the red pill but I can’t say for sure. Then again i’ve made so many wrong decisions in my life what would be one more lol.

*I have been a vegetarian for over 11 years since seeing a documentary that meant I could never eat meat again. I will admit to you somedays I wish I had never seen that program, especially on sunday mornings when everyone in the neighborhood  is cooking bacon:)

Amazon Prime Music up and Running in the UK

For those of us that don’t want to be totally trapped in the Apple universe Amazon Prime members in the UK  now have another option. While I doubt the music catalog will initially be as vast or up today as Apple it’s basically a Free extra to the already great value for money Prime Service.  Amazon says you can ‘Listen to over a million songs and hundreds of playlists online or on your mobile device with the Prime Music app’.

I’m using it on my PC as I type, you can’t download tracks on that at this time, but on the Amazon music prime app on my Hudl (UK Android Tablet) you can.

This makes the Amazon TV products even more relevant to those can hook it up to a quality sound system.

Lets hope this service grows and offers a real alternative to other music streaming products. I have to admit I feel sorry for Spotify, as I have always used that, at the moment their business model from the outside would appear to be under attack. That said it will be interesting to see what happens in this field over the coming months will Microsoft and Google up it’s game who knows.

As long as the Artists get paid a sensible fee and that is vitally important, I’m happy to sit back and watch the ever changing landscape of big business music and where possible reap the rewards as a music lover.

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Saying No to New Houses then…

A brilliant protest sign East Bergholt  East Anglia
A brilliant protest sign East Bergholt East Anglia

Saying No to New Houses? Then you must say an even louder No to mass immigration.

As I drive around Essex and Suffolk, I see village after village with signs that say things like ‘No to New Housing developments’  ‘This is a Village not a town’ ‘Don’t Kill  our Village’ etc etc .

I have to say I get very, very angry and not for the reason you would think. Despite what those in power would have you believe, a large majority of these houses are being built to accommodated our ever expanding immigrant population. That is not some racist rant, this is an obvious statement of fact. You simply can not have a never ending stream of immigrants coming into the county legally or illegally without being forced to build houses to accommodate them.

I have been an immigrate when I went to live in America and I’m also married to one (even if her mother was English). I like difference and I actually believe that a sensible level of immigration is healthy, not to mention necessary for a country’s continuation and growth.  But what is happening here and to many European countries is not healthy, right or necessary. It should be every countries first duty to maintain the quality of life for it’s people, be they indigenous or not. Those in power also have a duty to defend their peoples ways of life against abnormal erosion. By that I mean all nations change overtime but mass immigration into any area destabilizing the traditional ways of life for people that have lived in that area for generations to the point they feel aliens in their own land.

Politicians and the Politically correct brigade can throw numbers at this argument and claim as they do that immigration has no impact on housing or peoples ways of life but that is just a lie, THE BIGGEST LIE OF OUR TIME.  I can walk around markets and streets locally and believe that I have taken a trip to some eastern block country, I’m not talking about people’s colour or appearance, I’m talking about that fact I don’t hear the official language of this country being spoken or even attempted. If I can not communicate with the people around me in my own tongue or understand them then I for one think something has gone very wrong . I’m constantly being told that immigration is ‘low’ in our area if that is the case then I find that even more worrying.

All countries change and ways of life and thinking are eradicated overtime I do not dispute that. I fully believe in but a few generations this will be a Muslim county and then generations further something else.  For now it is still Great Britain and for now the Government must reduce the impact on the people who have created the very country that everyone in the world finds so desirable to come and live in. Rightly or wrongly the UK is perceived as the candy store of Europe.

So, if people are saying No to New Houses and saying Yes or saying nothing to mass immigration, because they don’t want to appear ‘Racist’ or uncaring, I suggest such people take down their protest signs and evaluate the cause and effect of all things. Much like the people that want power in their homes, but don’t want any way of producing it near them they are being naive at best and stupidly selfish. Why should someone else suffer down the road just so we can feel good about our ‘ideals’ and  local area.

This is a small country and as the saying goes ‘You can’t get a quart into a pint pot.’

There are no ‘good’ answers to this problem, there is no way everyone will be happy with the way of solving this Mass immigration , but solve it we must and fast if we want to maintain a quality of life for the whole of the country and it’s people. Asylum seekers may indeed have had a horrific life, but a life boat can only hold so many before it sinks and everyone drowns, this is a metaphor for countries and cultures as well.

I love the British countryside that is why I discovered I could never live anywhere else. I despise the way nature has so little value in eyes of governments and the soulless money men. I support all those that fight against the erosion into our green belt. I just believe most people have their heads in the sand about why things happen. They think that the world ends at the end of their drive, street, village or town. All this post and all my work is asking is for people to really look at a problem and understand that in life there are no real solutions, but the needs of the many must always out way the need of the few. That is just the law of nature which after all is just a elegant war zone.

The night is still young

I’m glad ‘The night is still young’ as I’ve still got loads to do..  I love this track very uplifting

Female Pop stars never look like Nicki Minaj in my day (well we only had Kate Bush), come to think of it, women never looked like that period. Sexy underwear was always well hidden under at least seven layers of petticoats, well it was cold in Ruislip when I was a boy😉

If we were lucky they would flash us their ankles behind the bike sheds lol. As we have established over the years of blogging my musical tastes are all over the place I refuse to be tied down to one style or era. When I listen to a track like this it does bring back the hope and dreams of the younger me, that is believe it or not alive and well in this old husk of a body. No matter how old you get never stop believing the night is still young.

When it comes to Entertaining music that just makes you smile Nicki is the real deal, thank the Gods for girls like her, they lighten the world for the rest of us.